Monday, February 10, 2014

Emotions emotions!

I'm feeling the jitters, it's really happening so soon. I can't help but to feel so many emotions, I'm feeling scared, worried, unprepared, nervous, anxious, joyful and of course supper excited.

I'm feeling scared for the unknown, the unknown of labor and what the pain is actually like. Scared of what will happen after the baby's is born, how will I react and how will I cope/manage being a mom. 

I'm ganna be honest, I'm worried that things mite not go as planed, nothing is in our hands and I'm just hopping that everything goes smoothly. I'm worried I'll b such a mess durning labor that I'll act like a crazy person. I'm worried that I won't have a clue how to handle a new born, no matter how much I think I know, and how much practice I got with my nieces and nephews it's no way near the same as doing it to your own. 

I'm feeling unprepared because I have nothing for the baby. My husband and I aren't buying anything till the arrival of our baby, which leaves us a big todo/to get list right when it's born. I know what I want, and what I need. I have made list after list of everything possible, but nothing feels satisfying. I'm not sure if it's the not buying things that's making me feel unprepared or the fact that you can never really be prepared of what will come. 

I'm supper nervous, and just have one to many questions on my mind. Will I be a good mom? Will I have a clue what I'm doing? What will my life be like with a child? What will my relationship with my husband be like? Will I hear the baby cry at night and wake up for it? How fast will I recover after birth? Will I...? Will I...? Will I...? The list goes on and on.

Duh I'm anxious all I have been talking about is how anxious I am to get this baby out of me. I'm anxious to just see what it will look like, and who it will look like. I'm anxious because I can't wait to just snuggle with my baby and love everything about it. It's tiny hands and feet, and it's little eyes, nose and mouth will be the cutest thing ever! 

Of course there not all worries and nervous, I'm so happy and looking forward for the day to come. I can't wait for that moment of meeting our baby for the first time. Holding it, and never wanting to let go, just thinking of it make me tear up. I'm feeling so so much excitement, love and joy already, I can't wait to really experience it. 

Only time will tell!

Here's what to look for in up coming posts!
Profile!
What not to say to pregnant women! 
How is your health?
Baby registries!  
Babies heart beat!
Interviews!
Product reviews!
The advantage of exercise!
and much much more!

Happy Motherhood!!

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